Journey of a Second Chance- Gates of New Beginnings – Rejection & Failure (part 10)p


So, yeah, Kevin started out 2013 in the hospital.  After the doctor scared us into thinking they were going to have to remove his spleen, they ended up finding a bunch of ulcers in his colon and stomach.  Once they figured it out, he began the physical healing process.  They say disease is DIS-ease.  At least for this, I’d have to agree, because we both still had emotional healing to do.    Both of us were extremely unsettled.    Kevin is always trying to please me, which I love about him, but not when it is at the cost of his own happiness.  I was desperately trying to get away from the stress of the heating and air business, but he didn’t want to give it up.  Thinking I knew what was best for both of us (my first mistake), I convinced him to let other people operate our business, so we could focus on real estate investing.  Let’s just say it didn’t turn out the way I had planned, and things began to implode.  Ultimately, feelings were significantly hurt.  I didn’t know what I know now, and I promise you,  I was all about my feelings.  Close relationships were damaged and some of us stopped speaking.  I felt like a failure in every since of the word “failure” and I fell into a deep depression.  I allowed those feelings to completely take over me, to the point I didn’t think I wanted to live anymore.  I had a lot of learning and growing to do.  It was painful.  I couldn’t stand being a victim, because I understood to some degree that it was only 10% what happens, and 90% how we react.  It still hurt.  It hurt bad.  Fortunately, I held onto a very small piece of hope that things would get better.  I had the Thomas Kinkade painting called Footprints in the Sand, hanging over my bed.  I prayed that God would carry me.

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I am a Blogger, a Real Estate Investor, a Certified Life Coach and Life Mastery Consultant. Mostly, I'm a Dreamer and my mission is to leave this world a better place because I was here.

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