Journey of a Second Chance- Gates of New Beginnings – Rejection & Failure (part 10)p

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So, yeah, Kevin started out 2013 in the hospital.  After the doctor scared us into thinking they were going to have to remove his spleen, they ended up finding a bunch of ulcers in his colon and stomach.  Once they figured it out, he began the physical healing process.  They say disease is DIS-ease.  At least for this, I’d have to agree, because we both still had emotional healing to do.    Both of us were extremely unsettled.    Kevin is always trying to please me, which I love about him, but not when it is at the cost of his own happiness.  I was desperately trying to get away from the stress of the heating and air business, but he didn’t want to give it up.  Thinking I knew what was best for both of us (my first mistake), I convinced him to let other people operate our business, so we could focus on real estate investing.  Let’s just say it didn’t turn out the way I had planned, and things began to implode.  Ultimately, feelings were significantly hurt.  I didn’t know what I know now, and I promise you,  I was all about my feelings.  Close relationships were damaged and some of us stopped speaking.  I felt like a failure in every since of the word “failure” and I fell into a deep depression.  I allowed those feelings to completely take over me, to the point I didn’t think I wanted to live anymore.  I had a lot of learning and growing to do.  It was painful.  I couldn’t stand being a victim, because I understood to some degree that it was only 10% what happens, and 90% how we react.  It still hurt.  It hurt bad.  Fortunately, I held onto a very small piece of hope that things would get better.  I had the Thomas Kinkade painting called Footprints in the Sand, hanging over my bed.  I prayed that God would carry me.

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I am a Blogger, a Real Estate Investor, a Certified Life Coach and Life Mastery Consultant. Mostly, I'm a Dreamer and my mission is to leave this world a better place because I was here.

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